Reading Mother Teresa--Nothing is Little

 

Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth 

and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, saying: 

“To him who sits on the throne 

and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power, 

for ever and ever!” Revelation 5:13

To the good God nothing is little. . . . (34) 

You know? – I really ought to print that line on a t-shirt: “To the good God nothing is little.” It’s hers – Mother Teresa’s – and it’s just plain beautiful.

But then, maybe I think so just because I’m getting old.

How is it that retired people get such a kick out of gardening? Why, for pity sake, does the appearance of that gorgeous cardinal or her lovely husband just outside our window just light up our day? Last night, my wife and I ate some pumpkin muffins she made, and it felt something like what I little I know of heaven. What’s that about anyway?

The world simply shrinks the older you get. That’s what I’m thinking.

Yesterday, I got a card from a man I don’t know. He says he’s been reading a book of my meditations over and over again, and they’re good, words I ground up down here in this basement. It was that kind of letter. Just a card. That’s it. Just a little homemade card. Made my day. Shoot, made my week. Little things.

A kid says something on his way out the classroom. Maybe it was an okay class that day, and as he’s walking out, he says, “Have a good afternoon, Professor.” I feel like I’m somebody. Little things.

A sunset. A windless, warm February afternoon. The faint whisper of spring. A raucous orchestra of birds in the morning sun once again, or the long glowing promise of an orange dawn.

Bad knees, leaky plumbing, sore feet, a testy stomach – there’s no end to the tribulations of aging. And yet, sometimes it just seems that I find myself, these days, a joyful victim of a transformed aesthetic. Instead of looking past life’s seeming givens, its otherwise incidentals, you take joy in ’em – a plain old bowl of cereal starts to taste like a feast, I swear it.

Maybe that’s what theologians mean by sanctification. Maybe the death of the old, young man begets the quickening of the new, old one. Count the paradox in that line. Okay, maybe it’s silly, but, dang it! – it’s cute.

Mother Theresa used to tell her sisters that to God everything is small, and therefore everything is beautiful because everything is divine. Isn’t that wonderful? “Because he makes them,” she’d say, “they are very great. He cannot make anything small; they are infinite” (34).

Rain on parched soil. Newbie buds on the maples out front. An old hymn you thought you’d forgotten.

At the funeral of a man I never knew, one little photograph of he and his wife just after the war, totally in love – I remember that darling snapshot, so full of life, far better than the shape of his face as he lay in the open coffin. I still see it. I wish I could show you.

Or how about this? Just beside me now, the last three segments of an orange I’ve been eating slowly ever since I sat down at this computer. I pull ’em apart, one at a time because of the juicy blessing I get with each little tart explosion of lovely taste.

Now there are two.

“Be faithful in little practices of love, of little sacrifices,” Mother Teresa used to say (34). Such things make you Christ-like.

Could it be possible that aging makes that easier?

Don’t ask me tomorrow. This may just be a good morning.

Besides, the orange is gone.

But then maybe that cardinal will show up. I should be so blessed.