Morning Thanks

Garrison Keillor once said we'd all be better off if we all started the day by giving thanks for just one thing. I'll try.

Friday, January 04, 2013

Denial VII

Final paragraphs of a story about two people, in love, who share similar, yet distinctly different stories.  

For a while she sat alone on the front porch, trying to estimate how long it would take him to finish showering, to get back downstairs, to realize that she was still outside and wanted to talk.

But he didn't come back. She remembered she'd been writing a letter, telling Mark and Carolyn how much she'd loved the new pictures. She'd been sitting at the dining room table when little Ben had fallen across the street. And then she remembered that wisp of angel hair in a cellophane packet. She'd left it out there on the table.

She went back into the house and found the letter where she'd left it. "We're so much alike," she'd written. "Brian and I are both cat lovers." She picked up the pen and scribbled in a final line, something that hurt her to write--she told Mark and Carolyn how much she would always love them for taking her gift of a child. But what she didn't say was something she knew now with a force that drew breath from the her own emptying soul--that Ashley was their baby.

She slipped the note in the envelope, licked the flap, and then sealed it with a kiss, this letter to the parents of a darling little girl who once was her very own, a short letter she'd come to understand might have to be the last.

She slumped in the chair and prayed--a wordless confession to a God of love who knew it all before, but heard it this time from a whole different kind of emptiness.

"I don't want to lose you, hon," Brian said. “I’m sorry.”

She turned to see him standing against the doorway, in tears, turned to him and stood up from the table. "I don't want to lose you either," she told him, and squeezed the angel hair in her hand.


Anonymous said...

The book to read for 2013.....The HARBINGER, by jonathan Cahn...AWESOME!

Anonymous said...